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Monday, January 31, 2011

Destined for nothing..

Destined for fame
life has to be something more than a name
more like a river
fishes and bitches
twentys and change

Politicians promising change
why do they lie
why do i lie
on a bed of rusty nails
send me to jail
come back as a snail
that traveled along the skiniest trails

i have a tale
but my girl took it with her when she took my hart
now im in the dark
but i love it
but how can one love
when hes only felt love from drugs

intoxication these days is my only occupation
this poem is dedicated to the girl that snatched my heart
and went on a never ending vacation
but i lie to myself
so im steady waitin
trouble is i have no patience

so god, if you exist
can you tell me what type of planet is this
and why do i exist
i need to know before i make an exit
and if my dream is in your vision can you bless this

and when the high starts to fade i make an exit
then i say goodbye till the next trip

Thursday, September 30, 2010

words from the wise


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The darkest side of my interests
I invest
Time into being myself
but them just
want to focus on your life
and ingest your interests
and spit out hatred and judgment
time is of an essence so i spend less
of it worying about being sin-less

You see
The world is a ball of greed
why is another man worried about the size of my jeans
it makes no sence
why do i choose to be free
because the chains that hold you down are rusted
so while you get lost in the judgement
i'll be turning my dream into what it was'nt
reality

Monday, September 27, 2010

Nipsey Hustle, you either heard of him or you havent, either way he's dope.


Music career
In 2008 Nipsey released two mixtapes, Bullets Ain't Got No Name, Vol. 1 and Vol. 2  before signing with Epic Records. Late in the year his debut single, "Hussle In The House," was released.
In 2009 he released a third mixtape, Bullets Ain't Got No Name, Vol. 3, appeared with Drake on the song "Killers,"  and appeared on the song "Upside Down" on Snoop Dogg's album Malice n Wonderland and on the official westcoast remix for Dorrough's single Ice Cream Paint Job. A first studio album, "South Central State of Mind" was expected in the summer of 2009 but was never released.
In 2010 he appeared on the song We Are the World 25 for Haiti. He was one of XXL Magazine's Annual Freshman Ten, a selection of ten up and coming artists.

[edit] Acting career

In 2007 Nipsey had a small part in Bone Thugs-N-Harmony's semi-biographical film "I Tried" directed by Rich Newey. In 2010 he will star in the film Wrath of Cain, to be directed by Ving Rhames.2010 Nipsey played in Love Chronicles Secret Revealed.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Struggles

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Everyone has a struggle
Rugged rocks and rubble
And then your troubles double
When it seems nobody loves you

You ask yourself if it's real
feeling the way you feel
you wanna just dissapear
happiness is a steal

Death is the only real
You could go tomorrow and emotions you never feel
Why are my lines so cold
Why do i talk about dying Because if i said that i'm happy then maybe i'd be lying

But still i walk with a smile
hold my head up on high
a part of me wants to laugh
a part of me wants to cry
why do people live by lies? 

Monday, September 13, 2010

Underrated female artist.. For those of you into good music heres a little info on Jean Grae


Early life


Born in Cape Town, South Africa on November 26, 1976, the daughter of South African jazz musicians (her father and mother are the celebrated musicians Sathima Bea Benjamin and Abdullah Ibrahim), she studied Vocal Performance at the LaGuardia School of Music & Art before majoring in Music Business at New York University. She also did some modeling during her teen years.

 Early career (1996-1998)
After working with groups including Ground Zero, she joined a hip hop music group called Natural Resource in the mid-1990s, along with rapper Ocean. In 1996 they released a pair of 12-inch singles called Negro League Baseball  b/w "Bum Deal" b/w "They Lied," and "Bum Deal (remix)" b/w "They Lied (remix)" b/w "I Love This World" on their own label Makin' Records. She also appeared on singles by fellow Makin' Records artists Pumpkinhead and Bad Seed, and on the O.B.S. (Original Blunted Soldiers) double 12-inch single alongside crew members Pumpkinhead, Bad Seed, and Meat-pie, and produced much of the material released on the label under the pseudonym Run Run Shaw. During this period she established strong ties with the Brooklyn Academy crew, with which she would appear throughout her career.

Solo career (1998-2004)
Natural Resource dissolved in 1998, after which Ibrahim changed her stage name from What? What? to Jean Grae, a reference to the X-Men character Jean Grey. Under her new moniker, she released her first LP—Attack of the Attacking Things—in 2002, and followed it in 2004 with This Week. Throughout her career she has also recorded tracks with numerous major hip hop artists, Atmosphere, The Roots, Talib Kweli, The Herbaliser, Da Beatminerz, Phonte, Mr. Len, Masta Ace, Vordul Mega, C-Rayz Walz, Mos Def, and Immortal Technique among them.

Jean has recorded an unreleased album with celebrated North Carolina producer 9th Wonder, of Little Brother fame, entitled Jeanius. This unfinished record was leaked on the internet, and subsequently work was stopped on this album. However, at the release party for 9th Wonder's Dream Merchant Volume 2 album she stated that Jeanius was still going to be released. This album was eventually released first through Zune Live Marketplace two weeks before its disc release on July 8, 2008. The album features the track "My Story", about the abortion she had as a teenager. Her rapping on the album was described by Robert Christgau as "remarkable for its rapidity, clarity and idiomatic cadence. The writing has a good-humored polysyllabic literacy." Elsewhere, it's been reported that her proposed fourth album, provisionally titled Phoenix has gone into production. It has been reported by several camp insiders that 9th Wonder will handle the lion's share of the production duties with unknown UK producer Passion hifi and NY resident Clinikal providing a beat each.

 Blacksmith Music (2005-present)
Previously signed to Babygrande Records, she signed a deal in 2005 with Talib Kweli's Blacksmith Records. On 28 April 2008, Jean Grae posted a blog on her MySpace page saying goodbye to her fans.She later cited disenchantment with the music industry and desire to start a family as the reasons behind the 'retirement' and said that she was working on new material and still wanted to continue in music: "You know what? I need that Grammy. I think I might be able to stop after that". In July 2008, Talib Kweli posted a blog explaining Grae's album, mentioning that she was not retiring. The blog ends encouraging fans to purchase the album, referring to Grae as "one of the last true MCs left." Grae returned to doing live performances later that year.

On September 18, 2008, Jean Grae posted a Craigslist ad offering her creative services for $800/16 bars. On her MySpace blog entry, she states, "I don't wanna complain anymore, I just wanna change some things about the way artists are treated and the way you guys are allowed to be involved, since it IS the digital age."

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Profit?

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The sweetest touch from an angel
dressed in a white shirt and sweatpants
long hair, perfect body, cutest face
believes in herself like i believe in she
I might attain her once i believe in me
No more hiding under the curtain of deception and lies
Trying to prove to her that I am a better guy
No more hiding who i am from the girl that i want to love me for who i am
now im in a trance
My mind is in a dance
Limbo or hell, wherever that i dwell
Unjarring my evil puttin morals on the shelves
Single is my life cause im living in a shell
Every woman that i know is the apitomy of hell

FEARLESS

I must not fear.Fear is the mind-killer.Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.I will face my fear.I will permit it to pass over me and through me.And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.Only I will remain.